6.30 on Tuesday mornings is a particularly slow piece of time. I tried to drown this one in Jasmine but it didn’t work. When I did go to sleep the alarm woke me up in the middle of a pension filled dream - in a campsite!

There are two ways of doing things at the moment - the way Chris would have liked and the way he wouldn’t.

I am purposefully doing lots of things they way he wouldn’t have liked. He would have hated our bedroom filled with perfumed oils and I think we will have macaroni cheese for tea tonight - again.

These are the little things.

The big things I think I will do the way Chris would have liked. Holidays, Jimmy at university and my retirement. We will just have to enjoy them without him – he would have liked that.