Blogging two days running, there is obviously a lot going on! Although I have actually done very little today I have nearly finished sorting out my apartment...... the rest of the time I have been knitting and thinking!
I think the 'lot going on' is actually in my mind rather than busyness or doing stuff - sitting and knitting and thinking has taken me to a very still place of reflection, which I will now try and put into words in my blogg.
When I meditate I can go to an extraordinary place, somewhere that doesn't feel here/this world. Recently this place has been full of colours - deep, swirling lights that I am in the centre of. I can also get this feeling at other times when I'm not meditating, it's a feeling of detachment, of being here and also not being here.
There is also the growing recognition that I feel time is accelerating, I was listening to something on YouTube earlier on talking about beginnings of the Internet in 1994. Just over 20 years ago and there has been a complete transformation in global communications. I talked about it to my Mum on the phone and she said she recognised it had happened, and also that she was not part of it, she was very right and I felt her understanding was insightful. I then thought back over the last 20 years of my life, so much has happened, too much for me to remember, yet here I am today present at this time. Not certain where this blogg is going - sometimes when I write a blogg I get an insight to what I'm thinking..... but it's not coming tonight!
So obviously - it is still work/reflections in progress...... and it's okay not to know! I love that - it is okay to say " I do not know why." And to just accept that!
So I do not know why - anything happens/why I am here/the meaning of life...... and it's okay not to know....... got there in the end - thank you blogg - that's what today has all been about - it's okay not to know!
Lucky to be alive - especially at this time - of accelerated change, chaos, the unknown getting closer, wow, wow ,wow....... AND it's OK not to know......... IN FACT IT'S PERFECT NOT TO KNOW!!!!!!
I think the 'lot going on' is actually in my mind rather than busyness or doing stuff - sitting and knitting and thinking has taken me to a very still place of reflection, which I will now try and put into words in my blogg.
When I meditate I can go to an extraordinary place, somewhere that doesn't feel here/this world. Recently this place has been full of colours - deep, swirling lights that I am in the centre of. I can also get this feeling at other times when I'm not meditating, it's a feeling of detachment, of being here and also not being here.
There is also the growing recognition that I feel time is accelerating, I was listening to something on YouTube earlier on talking about beginnings of the Internet in 1994. Just over 20 years ago and there has been a complete transformation in global communications. I talked about it to my Mum on the phone and she said she recognised it had happened, and also that she was not part of it, she was very right and I felt her understanding was insightful. I then thought back over the last 20 years of my life, so much has happened, too much for me to remember, yet here I am today present at this time. Not certain where this blogg is going - sometimes when I write a blogg I get an insight to what I'm thinking..... but it's not coming tonight!
So obviously - it is still work/reflections in progress...... and it's okay not to know! I love that - it is okay to say " I do not know why." And to just accept that!
So I do not know why - anything happens/why I am here/the meaning of life...... and it's okay not to know....... got there in the end - thank you blogg - that's what today has all been about - it's okay not to know!
Lucky to be alive - especially at this time - of accelerated change, chaos, the unknown getting closer, wow, wow ,wow....... AND it's OK not to know......... IN FACT IT'S PERFECT NOT TO KNOW!!!!!!
