time is going so quickly

It is extra-ordinary - but time is just flashing by at the moment!

It is Friday afternoon and in half an hour I will be off to the airport to fly to Belfast - I am staying with Steph for the weekend and then a busy week ending up in Edinburgh - all being well home next Friday - in time for Rob arriving on Saturday - my birthday celebrations continuing!

I was in London on Tuesday/Wednesday.... and something happened which was out of the ordinary. I had been at a Workshop on the Wednesday and it was good fun to be a participant not an organiser -  and I met a fellow Sound Healer - from Norway -  though the course was nothing to do with healing - however, the connection was strong - and we went deep quickly.

After the workshop we went for a short walk together and talked - deeply - but what happened next was very unexpected - I left and caught the tube to Euston station when  I had this overwhelming - not certain how to describe it - sort of wave of energy hit - it was very strong - I ended up wondering around Euston station in a wierd sort of state - all good - but very bonkers - and now I am still not able to really understand what happened.....

................ it's now Saturday at Stephs - I ran out of time yesterday - it's quite late and Steph and Kerry have gone to bed but I am feeling very wide awake so thought I'd finish my blogg!

Today has been lovely - we got up late and breakfasted well - then gently toured the beautiful Antrim coast - lots of laughter, love and the Giant's Causeway - special day - then we returned to Steph's and I did two Healing sessions. Both of which were wonderful.

Am very aware of the gap between where I am and where I might be seen  to be  - and possibly/probably am are quite a distance apart - and that this gap is getting bigger - I do feel I am living in two different worlds - though I am also aware that these two lives overlap.

I am also increasingly sure that I have to be open about this......... the fact that I am living in two sorts of worlds.

OK - so am living a truly blessed life - very happy, very busy doing what I believe to be the right things to do - and  at the same time  I am living this other  sort of alternative, bonkers and beautiful life!!!!!

Saturday night......

Have felt aware that I have not blogged for a while - tonight is Saturday night/ now actually Sunday morning/ quite late - after an evening with Gilly - eating tapas, drinking wine and talking deep - like we do!

Uncertainty/certainty is where I am at the moment - at every level - really feeling that I know 'stuff' but also feeling that I am at the being at the point of 'knowing nothing'.

...... but also knowing in my heart that I do know - way to go...... not coherent - but good!

How fast time is moving................

...... maybe it's just me - but I don't think so...... but time seems to be hurtling by at an extraordinary rate - and life does seem a bit of a bluuuuurrrrrrrr!!!!

Well - it's Saturday evening - after a big week for me - suddenly my future seems clearer - but also more unknown - so that's really good - and I am embracing that - holding close to me the preciousness of the 'unknown'. But hey - who knows anything, anyway?

Had a lovely day today -  spent time with my Mum - finally giving her the Christmas shawl I had knitted for her - which I had left in the suitcase in Croatia, The shawl is knitted from the most extraordinary gossamer soft, beautifully coloured wool - I knitted it over a few months - including the weekends I was on the sound healers course - it was really difficult to knit as the wool was so thin - and the pattern was bit weird - not going to use free download Internet patterns again!

However, the resultant shawl is actually very lovely. I had knitted it for her to put round her shoulders when she feels 'sad'. She's amazing and so positive but there are times when she just 'feels sad' - and I often talk to her about this - because it's OK to sometimes 'feel sad' - but she just misses my Dad so much.

This is the photo that I took of my Dad when my Mum was recovering from surgery in June 2011 - she was intensive care and Jimmy and I had called in to my parents house prior to going the hospital - I had asked my Dad to 'send Mum your love' and I took this photo into my Mum - and held it close to her. The Christmas before last I got it put on canvas (Gilly's suggestion) and she has the photo so close to her all the time - especially when she feels a bit sad. Today I told her the detailed story again - as she forgets - but she also loves to hear the story - about how my Dad is sending her his love though the camera. Looking at the photo - he is!!!!

Anyway the shawl is also linked to this - because I want to be with my Mum when she feels the loneliness and sadness - but am not, so had knitted the shawl for her to put round her shoulders when she felt sad. So it was a special time together today - as we talked - and we were together - and we both know these times are finite - so we were both treasuring the time together. Bufffff! the beautifulness of consciously treasuring our time together - if we could all do this with all our relationships - to treat and love everyone in our lives with the knowledge that our time together is finite, special and to be treasured - way to go Mum - what a lesson!

She was also particularly happy after Ann had organised a great visit to London last weekend. Travelling first class on the train, staying at Max's, revisiting the street where she had been born, lunch at Bryony's - she was just full of gratitude and happiness - and at 92 what more is there - but hey - at any age what more is there????

OK time is moving fast - but every precious moment is to be treasured - how blessed are we to be alive, here and now!!!!!!!!!