home but off again!

....... got back from India on Monday - so lots of stuff still circulating around me - amazingly busy working  week - Jimmy and Vaughn for dinner on Tuesday, Steph arrived on Thursday - and we all go to Ghent in Belgium tomorrow morning - pick up at 5.45!

So crazy travelling life continues - wonderfully full - but what a world - feels right to be me - but pretty full on!

Being in India

... tonight I am  in Delhi with Jenny - today we visited the Taj Mahal - a couple of days ago we were at Kathan and Swati's wedding, last week we visited tribal communities and schools and stood on the salt desert of Raam with an astronomer friend of Abhay's and watched the moon rise, the sun set and heard the Indian legends of the stars.....

I am full tonight... full of so much.... so many special things .... the joy of being with my sister Jenny, meditating every morning and going deep together, being together.... tonight laughing so much at the noises around us..... at the moment the best gurgling toilet we have ever heard!

....Kathan and Swati's wedding and the privilege of being part of that... the amazing hospitality of Abhay and Shraddha.... flying with Kathan's grandparents.... that was special... everything being special... trying to appreciate every wonderful moment of this time.

India is India........ I had a text from a European friend who said 'I am trying to imagine but I am not sure I can.... ' I agree......  India is such a different place..... and is very difficult to describe...... duality but different  .... I think India makes you face - full on - the definition of everything.....

Similarities and differences...... this is the heart of everything - recognising our similarities (our humanity) and cherishing our differences (our individual journeys and their cultural contexts).

How blessed am I!!!!!!!!

Words are inadequate........

Flowing between worlds.....

Sometimes I am not certain what world I am living in........

I had a great conversation earlier today with someone who talked about living life by flowing between two worlds..... it resonated a lot with me.

One  of my current blessings is that I spend quite a bit of time on my own... something that earlier on in my life was my greatest fear - but now is a great place to be - and somewhere I often just want to be - on  my own. Not only to on my own but consciously being on my own - I think that this is the cross over point between the two worlds - the conscious awareness of being alone - and loving this! OK sounds bonkers - but feels like where I am.

..... it's not always easy to be here though - and I think that's the thing about living in two worlds. Anyway not complaining - how could I - living the life I do - with all the blessing I have?

So tonight I put my out of office on for two weeks plus a few days..... tomorrow I meet Jenny at Mum's house and we go off to the airport for our Qatar/India adventure.... the bit that amazes me is that that we are being hosted for the entire trip by friends/family - how did that happen?

I feel tonight that is the flow - if you go with it you - it is no surprise to have friends/family across the world - go with the flow........crazy but truly wonderful!

Packing to go to India..

Seems strange - definitely not  got my holiday head on yet...... know I have done most of the things I have to do workwise, before I go - but am unsettled yet about that.... knowing things that are not in my control, need now to occur - my one concern is that things will not happen because I will be away - decisions that come up and need to be made.... but on Wednesday I will write an email out of office and the next day fly to Qatar with Jenny..... so I have to do my best in the next three days to make sure all that I can do has been done......

The universe has arranged things very neatly in that I meet Rachel's parents for the first time in Qatar - when I saw that our flights to India stopped in Doha - it occurred to me that it would be an opportunity to see Rachel and to meet her parents - and now we will be discussing weddings!

Then off to India for Kathan and Swati's wedding, plus all sorts of other adventures arranged by Abhay, Kathan's father, meeting David and Nalani from Hawaii in Delhi and hopefully Hector in Ahmadabad if we are both there at the same time.....wow!!!!!! How extraordinary and how amazingly blessed am I?

OK will continue my packing now, clean the flat and continue this blogg later after I have been to visit my Mum and met Jose the Spanish Intern at the airport.

OK - so am now home - Mum was not good when I arrived - she has been unwell over the last few days, she looked pale and worn and was sad - but she was getting better and we had a lovely afternoon, we talked about life and death, I gave my Mum a sound healing session - it is fantastic to see how they relax her - anyway she was much happier when I left, which felt special.

Mum's ailment is linked to her digestion and what felt very reassuring to me, was that she could track it right back to her childhood - she had felt her age yesterday as she was unwell, and was thinking that at 93, that any illness means her time has come...... to recognise that she had this problem all her life made us both happy!

She is also grieving for Ellen - in her own way - referring many times as to how Ellen had been 20 years younger when she died recently...... grief is always very personal......

So back to packing for India... reflecting and wondering at the turns and twists of an individual life's journey..... I have been think about this much recently - especially when talking to my Mum today - she and I talked beautifully deeply and it felt special to me - and I think my Mum - that we could talk about our soul's purpose .... of learning from this our own unique journey.

Special, special, special...........