Feeling the need to blogg a lot at moment - probably because my world feels deliciously off kilter - in the sense - that nothing is making a lot of sense - but actually everything makes perfect sense!!!
It's Friday night and I've been out for a pint with Rob - we had a big argument/discussion like we do - he's the only person in the world I really argue with - tonight we talked really deeply - which was wonderful - but of course this led to an argument - we ended up friends though - which doesn't always happen! He is such an amazing young man - I am so unbelievably proud of him......
India - plus the EI are really living with me at the moment - they/it were/was a truly enormous experience/s - not sure at the moment which is which - I think they are both so closely aligned.
I also think it is very important for me to recognise that I am in this turmoil - getting on with it in all it's craziness - but also so very happy to be here - still smiling - probably irritatingly so!
Great place to be - Friday after a long week - with a weekend to look forward to - wonderful!!!
Friday, February 26, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Holding onto India............
The meeting in Brussels was arranged around me being in India - and had to be before the of February - so it had to be just when I came back - and I knew it was coming - but it has been pretty hard going. The meetings were really good - and being with the EUCU.net family was wonderful - but 3 long days!!
Back in my own bed - with a pot of chamomile tea - having replenished my stock of herb teas in Amsterdam on the way back - after another meeting - am really tired tonight - which is probably understandable!
Still holding onto India in my heart - big breath...................... it feels like a warmth in my core... I want to keep this... not certain if I will be able to .. but I intend to try.
Wow moment - how amazingly lucky am I - still smiling - that's what I want to keep hold of - the joy I felt in India........
When I was walking through Amsterdam this afternoon I felt the weight of western consumerism.. the nonsense that we dedicate our lives to 'wanting' though not knowing we want to do with it!
But now I'm in my warm bed - drinking tea - I can see the happiness I felt - and probably because I'm so tired - it is a warm yet quieter feeling - but the feeling in Amsterdam is also on the periphery - I think the technical term is a mood swing!
So time to drink up chamomile tea and to sleep - waking up to see what tomorrow brings!
Back in my own bed - with a pot of chamomile tea - having replenished my stock of herb teas in Amsterdam on the way back - after another meeting - am really tired tonight - which is probably understandable!
Still holding onto India in my heart - big breath...................... it feels like a warmth in my core... I want to keep this... not certain if I will be able to .. but I intend to try.
Wow moment - how amazingly lucky am I - still smiling - that's what I want to keep hold of - the joy I felt in India........
When I was walking through Amsterdam this afternoon I felt the weight of western consumerism.. the nonsense that we dedicate our lives to 'wanting' though not knowing we want to do with it!
But now I'm in my warm bed - drinking tea - I can see the happiness I felt - and probably because I'm so tired - it is a warm yet quieter feeling - but the feeling in Amsterdam is also on the periphery - I think the technical term is a mood swing!
So time to drink up chamomile tea and to sleep - waking up to see what tomorrow brings!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Back from India....
... and can't stop smiling!!
A Glorious Journey was how I described it to someone, sometime - somewhere - in Southern India - and I liked the expression - as it was just that - a Glorious Journey!! I think it will take many bloggs to work through all that has happened and all that I have learnt from it - from India, its beautiful people, its spirituality, the countryside, the food........ but also my companions, the children, the EI - going there and coming home - I am - and was in India - just so very very happy - it is just such a wonderful feeling to be always happy.
It feels longer that three weeks - we did so much - I also went off on my own - and visited a university established by a man I met in Beirut - 25 years ago - the university not the meeting - and that was amazing.... Red carpet treatment - I had such a wonderful time - visiting not only the university but also partners that they are working with, in the rural areas, making two Women's Empowerment Talks!! and visiting schools - my breath was blown away!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I felt - and still feel so strongly - in awe of the Indian people - we - westerners - have lost so much in our pursuit of - xxxxx - can't think of a word because it's not civilisation - and it's definitely not truth - 'tomorrow' - is as close as I can get to it - because here in the west we seek and pursue tomorrow - but we have forgotten how to enjoy today - or even how to recognise the present - wrapping it up in a web of worry and fear about the future.
I just absolutely loved India!!!
My favourite bit was staying in the farm - very basic in terms of amenities - which we quickly learnt to live without - but just such an amazing place - with Aranuchala - the holy mountain - directly in front of us and surrounded by very old cultivated fields - nurtured through centuries old - sophisticated - yet minding blowingly simple irrigation systems.
Absolutely amazing - feel very tired tonight and am not sure if I'm making much sense - a 5 and a half hour time difference - just love the concept of a half hour time difference! - combined with very little sleep for several days is beginning to catch up on me - work tomorrow then an early start on Tuesday to go to Brussels - but I just can't stop smiling because life is so wonderful!!!!
A Glorious Journey was how I described it to someone, sometime - somewhere - in Southern India - and I liked the expression - as it was just that - a Glorious Journey!! I think it will take many bloggs to work through all that has happened and all that I have learnt from it - from India, its beautiful people, its spirituality, the countryside, the food........ but also my companions, the children, the EI - going there and coming home - I am - and was in India - just so very very happy - it is just such a wonderful feeling to be always happy.
It feels longer that three weeks - we did so much - I also went off on my own - and visited a university established by a man I met in Beirut - 25 years ago - the university not the meeting - and that was amazing.... Red carpet treatment - I had such a wonderful time - visiting not only the university but also partners that they are working with, in the rural areas, making two Women's Empowerment Talks!! and visiting schools - my breath was blown away!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I felt - and still feel so strongly - in awe of the Indian people - we - westerners - have lost so much in our pursuit of - xxxxx - can't think of a word because it's not civilisation - and it's definitely not truth - 'tomorrow' - is as close as I can get to it - because here in the west we seek and pursue tomorrow - but we have forgotten how to enjoy today - or even how to recognise the present - wrapping it up in a web of worry and fear about the future.
I just absolutely loved India!!!
My favourite bit was staying in the farm - very basic in terms of amenities - which we quickly learnt to live without - but just such an amazing place - with Aranuchala - the holy mountain - directly in front of us and surrounded by very old cultivated fields - nurtured through centuries old - sophisticated - yet minding blowingly simple irrigation systems.
Absolutely amazing - feel very tired tonight and am not sure if I'm making much sense - a 5 and a half hour time difference - just love the concept of a half hour time difference! - combined with very little sleep for several days is beginning to catch up on me - work tomorrow then an early start on Tuesday to go to Brussels - but I just can't stop smiling because life is so wonderful!!!!
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