Monday, April 18, 2016

Feeling at home in Croatia

Funny how my life has changed so much in the last year.

I am living quite a different life - now based in Croatia - still travelling but independently and no longer as part of my employment. Last year was a bit half an half re this - I suppose because I was working part-time and had some trips funded and others I paid for myself.

Have still not decided or been guided to know where my life is leading - and feel like I am living very much in the flow. I think the big thing for me has been to surrender - to genuinely go with the flow - without expectation or consciously steering what happens next.

It is a balancing act between deciding what to do on a day to day basis and letting things unravel on a weekly/monthly basis - whilst going through a open door if one presents itself to me. I feel I did that very much in South/Central America - and my last trip just unfolded in stages in a truly beautiful manner.

I do sometimes feel a bit impatient and would love to have a really big clear sign which says to me - this is what you are meant to be doing with your life - with a great big arrow pointing in a very specific direction! But this is the journey,  and the not knowing is just as important as the knowing!

So I am happy - I can feel the happiness inside of me and that's good. I am uncertain of where my life is going - and I'm learning to be in that place and working on truly accepting the unknown - it's still work in progress but I'm getting there! ...... and I AM! How cool is that!