I have just read my blogg from Friday and was surprised how upbeat I felt! This week has just felt so hard. The sense of transition is just getting so strong.
And I suppose there are two sides to a transition, the leaving and the beginning. At the moment I am deeply immersed in the process of leaving and I haven't yet fully started the beginning. Though I am making plans for 2015, Australia and India, dancing in Spain in September……
But after that I'm not sure what I will be doing, where I will be going…… or why - questioning my purpose I suppose.
I am excited about the new beginning, though there seems an awful lot of things to do before I get there.
I think I need to recognise that these are big things that are happening to me. I will be leaving the city where I have lived for 40 years and I will choose to make myself homeless. I think this is at the heart of my uncertainty, I will leave my flat and take up temporary residence somewhere else around the world.… and I will have no fixed address, no home. This is going to be a really big step for me…… and I will be doing it on my own.......
But how exciting, half of me is just so excited, this time next year I will be packing up all my belongings and putting a few in storage somewhere, quite where I haven't work out yet, then with a suitcase I will be off!!!
How lucky am I to be in this position? Extra ordinarily lucky!! I love writing my blogg, I woke up this morning feeling a bit miserable and now I feel excited and happy……
I am so ready for this, but like every new adventure sometimes taking the first steps are always the most difficult.
